I've been thinking.. If I'm doing the right thing, making the right decision.. Yes, I am trying to get him out of my mind, letting it all go cos I know it ain't right. & because of this, I'm shutting myself out from everything else, from ABC, friends and everybody. I just need some time alone.. I admit, I deny whenever anyone comes foward and tells me, you're doing this to yourself all because of him right? Getting all moody, depressed and stressed up. & I'll give a stupid reason saying "My world doesn't revolve around him and only him". HAHAHA. *slaps myself*

Honestly, I've no idea what I'm doing right now. I've tried ways to approach you, just like how she did, but the way you react to me and her.. It's just so different.. Am I such a person that you can't play around with, giggle with, joke with, hang out with, have fun with? Am I that boring and dull?

Just when I thought I've made improvements, feeling better than usual, & there I go, making a stupid decision to go see him. & that's when that stab of the knife came, straight through my heart. I will never forget that night..

That night when we said goodbye, and I stupidly went "Hug Hug" and you gave me that big tight hug, making me feel so safe, so warm.. & when you asked me if I was okay, I almost burst into tears and walked as fast as I can so that you won't see those tears stream down my face..

It just upsets me, real bad..
I felt a heartache I've never felt before in my life.
& you had to be the one, who once brought me smiles, now brought me pain.

You make me question myself a lot, as a person and as a friend.
& yes, I have made up my mind..
So here's 3 words I wanna tell you before I make that step..
I Like You.